“it’s been a time, hasn’t it?”
one thing i love about “girl speak” is how we all have our own little idiosyncratic phrases, and we love them because we associate them with our lovely friends. i have an adorably sweet girlfriend who likes to say “it’s been a time” when something silly/fun/awesome/worth remembering happens, and that’s exactly how i feel about 2014. (thanks, Laurbear!)
it’s been a real time, 2014. it really has.
i guess this is where i’m supposed to say something like, “i can hardly believe this year is over!”, or “where has 2014 gone!” — but i don’t think that’s quite how i feel, this year. looking back on it, although of course “life goes by so quickly” (how does that saying go? “the days are long, but the years are short?”), it doesn’t seem like it flew by, really, because i know exactly where it’s gone — and i am thankful for every golden moment upon which it flew away.
for me, 2014 has gone to some of the most memorable moments of my young adult life, and i can honestly say that i feel like i really, truly lived this year. i lived the heck out of it.
:: it’s gone to further cultivating and strengthening my amazing girl friendships, for which i’m so unbelievably grateful.
:: it’s gone to standing beside my best friend in the universe as she married the love of her life, and then becoming an auntie for the first time as they had the most adorable baby boy this fall (who has completely stolen my heart).
:: it’s gone to the most fun weekends at the beach and the lake with the girls, dancing at the Sloppy Tuna in Montauk and losing afternoons on the boat upstate to pontoon shenanigans. it’s gone to late-night fires with white wine and fireworks. it’s gone to the best kinds of silliness.
:: it’s gone to celebrating close friends’ weddings (Jess! Christine!) and engagements (Tara!) and baby’s births; to trips upstate and to Texas to do so.
:: it’s gone to so much quality family time at the lake, made even better now that my brother lives in NY again. it’s been such a blessing to see our family grow even closer year by year, and 2014 was a banner year for that.
:: it’s gone to the start of a writing reawakening for me, as i’ve definitely written more — both personal creative writing and blogging — this past year than i had previously since i’ve been in NYC. (i’m hoping 2015 takes this even further!) shameless writing plug: what i consider to be the best thing i wrote in 2014: What It’s Like to Have a Wanderlust Soul.
:: it’s gone to so much running and working out and allllll the happiness i derive from those hours and hours of “me” time. even though i couldn’t run the marathon this year, i’m feeling so strong and happy in my running, and that’s what really matters. this was a good year for pavement pounding, with a highlight definitely being running the NYC Half in March. such an iconic, amazing race.
:: it’s gone to reading some amazingggg novels, like Cheryl Strayed’s Wild and Tiny Beautiful Things, Cutting for Stone and Room and Rules of Civility and so many more. hours spend in books are never wasted, for me.
:: it’s gone to finishing another year of grad school and being that much closer to the dream of a new career. to enjoying every minute of my Human Sexuality class and learning so much more about myself than i ever dreamed i needed to uncover. cheers to self-discovery, at any and every age. cheers to lifelong learning.
:: it’s gone to so many nights of early bedtimes so i could run as the sun comes up; it’s gone to balancing that with some crazysillywonderful memorable nights out dancing with the girls ’til the sun has almost come up. it’s gone to loving both of those, equally and separately.
:: it’s gone to buying alllll the fun running tights. all of them.
:: it’s gone to liking the same boy as much on this day last year as i do today, one year later. i almost can’t believe i’m writing that, and i’m so very, very glad it’s true.
:: it’s gone to falling more in love with, and more settled into, New York City, and discovering exactly who i am, in a city that tells me to be anyone, to be everyone. to Broadway shows and speakeasys; to picnics in Central Park and rarely ever wearing heels anymore; to very little make-up and more hours spent in snapbacks and headbands; to laughing too loud with friends i love too much to imagine my world without. to knowing that i could have ended up anywhere in this great big glorious mess of a world, and i landed exactly, precisely where i am supposed to be at this moment in time, no matter how many ways you spin it.
but it’s gone to loving home even more, too, and the amazing people i have there. it’s gone to recognizing that you can belong in, and be in love with, two different places on an equal scale. it’s gone to having a split heart, and finding joy in that.
and that, i believe, is what we call “living on purpose.” i’m not saying 2014 held zero challenges or hard times or tears for me — it had them all, and some i handled gracefully, and some rather badly. but looking back, i think i can honestly say that i lived this year entirely on purpose and did the best i could with what i was given — and i’m not sure i can ever ask for anything more than that.
and thanks to YOU, all my lovey readers, for being such an important and fun part of my life this year. i’m so grateful for all of you — my “real life” friends and family members who read my blog, and all of my new “blog friends” who i’ve had the opportunity and pleasure to interact with via our little virtual corners of the universe. i hope this has been an equally amazing year for all of you.
God bless us, every one.
xo
I’m so glad that you came into my life this year–you truly do have a wanderlust soul and a happiness and vibrancy for life that we all need to have some exposure to.
Plus you let me drool over my old city, which I mightily appreciate.
Happy new year, my dear, I can’t wait to watch you take on 2015!
awww, thank you for this sweet note, girl. i’m so glad to have “met” you as well, and so enjoy our shared sense of humor and affinity for so many of the same things (running. chris hemsworth. fun drinks. your yoga picture. nyc!). best wishes to you in the new year, too! xo
It’s been a time indeed, I love the phrase and I LOVE the post. Oh and I love you. That’s the most important. BRING IT ON 2015!
aww, i feel all that love, toots. i love YOU, too!
I think this is my favorite end of the year recap. You are so grateful for all that you have and I love that you didn’t do the “it went too fast.” Thanks for sharing your amazing year and here’s to a wonderful 2015…..with lots more wine!
thanks, lady! that’s such a sweet compliment. i’m so glad you enjoyed it, and that we are able to connect via our blogs. hope you have a wonderful start to 2015, too!
Such a beautifully written post by an amazing writer and person! It’s been great getting to know you and read your writings/posts during the last half of 2014 Shawna!! 🙂
thank you, my encouraging friend! always appreciate your comments and support. 🙂
Awwww Shawna!!!! What a beautiful post!! Wow, seriously an amazing review! I know 2015 will hold nothing but love and spectacular memories for you because girl, you always have the best times!! You live it up!! I truly respect you! You are so sweet and just the best! Have an amazing week!! XOXO
KRISTIN you’re such an encouragement, as always! thanks girl, and hope all the best for you as well!
Good stuff 🙂
Thanking for meeting me last night. So good to finally see you in person. Hope your 2015 is filled with much love, fun and happiness. (that includes running and blogging, of course.)
so great to see you after so many years, too, and hopefully we will reunite in NYC again! thanks for the kind words, and all the same to you, as well.
What a beautiful post! You have LIVED 2014. Sometimes I read your blog and imagine living a glamorous NYC life vicariously through you! Keep at it!
thanks, Irish. 🙂 one of my fave parts about meeting other bloggers and reading about their lives is hearing about the places they live, too! such a cool way to experience cities from afar, through someone else’s eyes.
Aw Shawna it’s definitely been “a time” 😀 I love that the boy is still in your life and that you’re still just as happy as you were last year. AND I love that you’ve had so many adventures alone and with friends. You’re a warrior woman!
thanks, chica! 🙂