Simplicity, Pumpkin Spice & I’m Published! (TOLT)

Thursday means a big shout-out-thanks to Amanda @ Running With Spoons, I get a chance to rant all over the place today and use it as an excuse to linkup with some other fun bloggers.

Thinking-Out-Loud

1. So first off, I just received an email (literally like 3 minutes ago) that a piece I recently submitted to Thought Catalog was accepted (!!!), so I’m currently really excited about that. I’ve published this piece on my Mogul site before, but I’m a huge Thought Catalog fan and definitely feel I can get more exposure being published there. 

My piece: You Have the Right to Remain Single

I’ve written quite a few memoir pieces over the years and this one (written this past year) holds a special place in my heart, so I’m over the moon thrilled and so very flattered that it was published on this site. I have a writer’s page now as well, so I hope to continue to push myself to write content worthy of being published. (PS – If you’ve never checked out this site, do yourself a big favor and start perusing — there are so many great reads!)

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2. I have big plans to be all outdoorsy this weekend, as the boy and I are going to drive a bit north of the city and go for a hike on Saturday, which is something we’ve been talking about doing for a while. September seems like the ideal time to hike in NY, so I’m stoked to get out of the city and explore some new-to-us paths and towns along the Hudson. It’s crazy to me that I live so close to these quaint little towns and gorgeous hiking trails, and yet I’ve barely explored any of that area. Time to change that! And I already know I’m going to want to go again once the leaves start to change and take in all that beauty.

3. Has anyone tried these alluring bars of healthy goodness yet? 

pumpkin-spice-rxbarThe only RxBar I’ve tried so far is the blueberry, which I rather enjoyed, so I figured I should buy a box of the seasonal pumpkin spice flavor while it’s available and show down on those as a wholesome way to welcome the start of Autumn. I’ve basically given up all bars except for the occasional Larabar (as they’re only dates and nuts), but I know these are also clean-eating friendly and whole food based, so I figured I’ll give ’em a whirl. Aka I blindly ordered a box off Amazon and really hope I like them. 

4. I feel like I’m getting a bit “bored” (not sure that’s exactly the right word but it’s in that wheelhouse so I’m sticking with that for now) with my workouts lately. I think I’m missing the high-intensity of the boot camp classes I used to take and need to up the kettlebell, plyo, TRX sessions to at least two a week. I’d love to try Orange Theory or do Class Pass, but right now my schedule is so restricted that really the only way for me to workout is either to wake up and immediately go running along the Hudson or else go two flights down to my apartment building gym and push myself as hard as I can without a trainer screaming at me to do another push-up until I fall on my face. Maybe I should take advantage of some of the Nike workouts, or look for suggestions online. Any thoughts? 

5. I’m currently reading The Untethered Soul and having mixed feelings about it. It’s very heady and zen, which I don’t really mind, except that while it does force me to think about the process of thinking and taking ownership of my consciousness (and not really being someone who is stuck inside her head too much or does much over thinking at all, some of it is a bit hit-or-miss for me), the primary affect it’s having on me is to make me wish I was really good at yoga (aka flexible at all) and send me searching for cool yoga pants online from which to start my own stretching practice in my bedroom. Apparently I associate meditation with lying on a mat in cute patterns and practicing gratitude… and I’m okay with that. I’m just not quite sure that’s what the author was going for. 

6. Been feeling a pull lately to really embrace simplicity more in the way I live, which is spurring me to want to dump the entire contents of my closet (and dressers, and beneath-the-bed bins) onto my floor and really contemplate what I can live without. This then led me to think about the kind of life I’d like to lead right now, which brought me to thoughts of moving somewhere super granola outdoorsy, surrounded by natural beauty, where I can engage in all sorts of physical outdoor activities to my heart’s content on a year-round basis and feel really centered and balanced. And that led me to thinking about what a complete overhaul of my closet would look like and what sort of clothing best represents me…and a few minutes later, I’d purchased a sweet Patagonia jacket from Backcountry. I mean, I can totally justify the jacket and love it, but find it sort of hilarious that a thought process starting with “simplify your life” and then going to “get rid of unnecessary stuff” finally led to “buy something new.” But I’m going to tackle the purge soon, I swear. This is just extra fuel for that fire. 😉

I think that’s enough ranting for today! Feel free to tell me something random from your week.

Two Things Tuesday

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1. I finally wrote another memoir piece. And I’m really happy with it.

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This piece has sort of been a long time in the making, the different parts floating around in a non-cohesive jumble for quite some time before I was ready to tackle them head-on and harness them into something worth sharing with the world. I so desperately want to write things that I believe in whole-heartedly; that speak to the essence of who I am; that I can stand behind 100% as defining pieces of my story that I desire to get out just so. I want to believe in what I write, and let others see pieces of me as I’m ready to release them. I want my memoirs to be written from the soul.

I’m happy to be able to say that I believe this one is a part of that unfolding.

How I captioned this on IG:

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Thanks in advance if you read me, friends. Means more than you can know. ❤

2. I had a stellar, glorious weekend of running! It was GORGEOUS here finally, and I felt so so good, so I just listened to my body and let it keep going as long as it desired…which turned into a total of 20 wonderful miles along the West Side/Hudson River. I ran 12 on Saturday and felt so good on Sunday that I thought, “a 20 mile weekend sounds lovely,” and 8 miles later, I’d hit my goal.FullSizeRender

Dontcha just love when that happens? And what was so nice about these back-t0-back long runs was that they didn’t feel hard. I felt great and happy and enjoyed every single moment of them (and even ran again this morning without any pain or soreness, woot!). God knew I needed a weekend like that.

& then I got a little bit reflective after those runs were done and started thinking about how fortunate I am to be able to set goals like that and meet them, and how good it feels when you just feel good. I know you know what I mean! As runners, we experience the ups and downs and joys and trials and euphoric runs and miserable runs and everything in-between. I don’t know about you, but I’m a firm believer in riding out those highs while they’re here and reflecting on how thankful I am for all that I’ve been given.

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So today, I am happy. & that feels like enough.

Hope you had wonderful weekends, friends!

Tell me a weekend highlight!
Anyone have a glorious run/race/workout?

New Memoir Piece

as many of you know, writing is my passion. long before i fell in love with running, i always loved to paint my world with the magic of words. it’s where my heart finds its true joy; what sets my soul afire. it’s where i struggle with the truest way to let the world see just who i really am.

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i love blogging, but even more, i love writing memoirs & poetry & creative pieces. i need that means of release of self; that freedom to dig deep and put my very soul into words as best as i can in that moment.

and what i have to give, may it always be enough.

what sparked this post: i published a new piece last night on MOGUL: What Moving to a Different Place Can Teach You. every time i finish a new memoir-style piece, i feel like a weight has been lifted; like a part of myself that wanted release finally found it. i think we all need something in our life that gives us this feeling.

please take the time to read me if you have a moment (and the desire to!), and let me know what you think (either by commenting there or here).

thanks, friends. ❤

What Running 26.2 Miles Teaches You

i posted this earlier today on MOGUL as well, a women’s site for which i am a contributing writer. check out that site if you’re interested and i’d love if you follow me! 🙂

on Sunday, October 11th, 2015, i woke up before the sun rose and knew immediately, without a shadow of a doubt, that it was a great day to do a hard thing.

i was instantly relieved & excited by the acknowledgment that i felt so good about this choice. this was a decision born of months of preparation and also the imminent glory of that morning, and both were necessary to carry out this enormous act. i could have woken up and said to myself, “sure, i thought i was ready for this — but i just don’t want to.” it wouldn’t have mattered, then, if i’d put in the necessary work; it wouldn’t have mattered how many amazing people were rooting for me; it wouldn’t have mattered if i’d paid the entry fee & affixed my bib to my favorite running shirt & laid out all my race-day prep & prayed for fresh legs. that would have all still occurred regardless of how i’d felt going to bed, and yet if i’d woken up at 6am and decided it wasn’t a good day for a hard thing, none of that would have mattered. my life would have still kept going, difficult thing or no difficult thing, and i’d have been okay.

but not the same. no, if i hadn’t done this hard thing, i would certainly not have been the same.

but as it turns out, i did choose to tackle the seemingly-insurmountable beast, and it changed my life & rocked me to my core in the most beautiful way imaginable. if i hadn’t woken up knowing what a good day it was for such a hard thing, i would have missed out on one of the most magical, epic experiences of my entire life, and i wouldn’t have had four hours and 26.2 miles to wrestle with myself on that Sunday morning. i wouldn’t have had that great thing occur — that covetable, magnificent, blood-sweat-&-tears thing that cost me so very much of myself and brought me to places within my being that showed me how very much i still have to learn about the person i’m continually becoming and how amazing it is to be the proud possessor of a human spirit that refuses to accept the fact that in this life, there just might be limitations.

because on that day, i did a really, really hard thing — and nobody can take those four hours away from me. they are forever mine; i fought for those with every ounce of skin & sinews belonging to me. with every footfall, i imprinted my signature in rubber along the long & lovely trail. i was here. & i was here. & oh yeah – i was here, too. i was grit & smiles, sweat & wings, pain & joy. i was suddenly everything i’d ever hoped i’d become.

what you learn about yourself when you run a marathon is that you can do amazing things. you learn that you have a mind and a body that can work together to astound you; that you’re capable of deciding to take on something most people think is impossible – that you once thought was impossible – and that you can discipline your body to carry out that decision. you learn that you are a fighter; that you can push yourself past boundaries of comfort & pain & fatigue & weather patterns and hover on the edge of sanity til you realize you rather like it there, suspended between earth and sky, walking a tightrope of something akin to mania or euphoria when you think about the ways you’ve pushed yourself in the pursuit of a dream worth losing sleep & social life & toenails over. you groan through the aches and celebrate the highs and become more in tune with your body than you ever have before, and you begin to love yourself immeasurably for what you can accomplish entirely on your own.

you learn that anything in life truly worth fighting for – anything you’re desperate to have tucked beneath your skin, written on the tablet of your life, bursting forth from the pages of your story – will require nothing less than total commitment and the utmost self-belief. you learn that all those hours of early morning pavement pounding, of Friday nights devoted to early bedtimes and the anticipation of tomorrow’s long run taking priority over all else, of muscles so sore and tight you often wondered how you’d ever make it through another run, of tunnel vision rendering you one-dimensional in your pursuit of this beast and turning all of your conversations back to your training as you’re suddenly unable to recall a time when you once had other things to occupy your interest and time, are all part of a journey that will leave you forever changed in every soul-gripping way imaginable.

and at the very core of this lies the overwhelming sense of gratitude you begin to wear like a second skin. gratitude for legs strong enough to carry you across those relentless miles; gratitude for a life that allows you the freedom and time to devote yourself to something so all-encompassing; gratitude for all of the people who love you enough to support you through this and champion your efforts. mostly, you’re awash with gratitude for your very youness; for being healthy & strong & determined & able to carry out this dream; to do something so very hard entirely on your own, armed with nothing but a feverish desire to overcome all obstacles in this dogged pursuit of self.

what training for a marathon really teaches you is how to become the very best version of you. it’s as gloriously simple as that. it’s as heart-wrenchingly difficult as that.

i don’t believe it’s possible to accurately capture in words that specific, all-encompassing feeling of elation that overwhelmed me when i rounded the final corner and saw the finish line of my marathon ahead of me. so much crowds into that moment that if i could just freeze it and dissect it, i’d be able to name all of the individual parts that contribute to the overwhelming sense of euphoria that brought tears to my eyes as a grin stretched across my face and my arms had no choice but to fly high above my head — but in that moment, all i felt was so much. so much.

it’s the sense of accomplishment in yourself, of having done this hard, hard thing — this nearly-impossible thing that really is ever-so-possible after all — entirely on your own.

it’s the physical representation of the goal, that banner stretching high, the words marking your final steps. it’s hearing your name over the microphone as you step across the finish line.

it’s the cheers & excitement of the crowds, seeing your parents & best friends’ faces beaming through, feeling their love & pride shining forth at you. all for you.

in that moment, it honestly feels like the whole world just loves you. like you understand what it means to sit atop a cloud and look back at earth & transcend it all, floating high amidst the bluest blue, untouchable, unbreakable, infinite.

in that moment, you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are exactly who you were meant to be; exactly who you want to be. you are oh-so-human, with good days and bad, with heartaches & joys, with disappointments & love — you carry the whole world inside of you, & as you cross that finish line after a 26.2 mile journey to the center of your core and back, you can feel it all.

you are one person among many, but you are so very much you.

& suddenly, you know that will always be enough.

2 Things Tuesday

ONE: morning love. in a world (and a city!) that has so many things with which to fall in love every day, today, i am in love with the sunrise.

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this was absolutely worth the 5:30am wake up, to be out and running by 6am and see this sky blooming & blossoming before me at the tail end of my run along Chelsea Piers. definitely worth stopping in my tracks to capture & cherish.

oh, & the run felt absolutely amazing today, too. i’m really, really thankful i’m feeling so good at this stage in the game. aka race in less than 2 weeks! eeee!

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TWO: creative writing. i’m doing more with my creative writing (aka my passion work) these days, and i wrote this for my BFF in honor of her baby’s first birthday two weeks ago & gave to her in a floating frame.

shawnamarie-jess-2the design aspect was handled by a talented friend…and hopefully you’ll be seeing more of this sort of thing in the (near) future. 🙂

Tell one (or two!) good things going on in your life lately!

currently {me}

*running. weekend mileage: 13.1 mile insanely hilly run upstate on Saturday; 5 mile insanely hilly power walk upstate on Sunday. even though the terrain is challenging, i love running at home. it wasn’t humid, the country roads are beautiful, and it’s so peaceful. sure, i’m running more slowly, and i run out of water every time, and i always start too late so it gets super hot at the end…but it’s all worth it.

  • the bad: i have a shin splint. ouch. i’m really hoping to be more diligent about icing and resting if i need to and not pushing myself to any further injury.
  • the good: i feel like i’m at a good place mentally with my running. i’m not running as much as i’d like, and definitely not as fast as i’d prefer, but i’m enjoying it (when my leg doesn’t hurt) and not allowing myself to stress out about it and just tackling it one run at a time.
  • the in-between/uncertain: will i run the marathon in October? i have no idea. i haven’t run more than 13.1 miles still, and that’s felt like a struggle lately (b/c HILLS and heat), so i don’t think i’ll be ready, or even want to, to be honest. i guess we’ll see in a few weeks!

*eating. dried mission figs. i bought a bag at a lil farmer’s market by me the other day and they’re just so good. i don’t know why i don’t keep these on hand all the time. i’d love to say i eat them b/c of all the potassium and fiber — which are great benefits — but really, i just love ’em, and they fill me up.

*reading. This Side of Paradise by my beloved F. Scott Fitzgerald. this is his first novel — he was only 23 when he wrote it (talk about a genius combination of ambition and talent) — and the 4th i’ve read of his. it’s quirky and witty and apparently semi-autobiographical, and i love the main character’s name (Amory Blaine). it’s intriguing so far, and definitely different from anything else i’ve ever read. i wouldn’t call it a page-turner, but i’m enjoying following this flighty protagonist as he attempts to come of age rather trippingly. as do all of his novels, this one has some amazing quotes. i just adore his writing.

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*current mood.e0983c3ce2a4c6650ee927e17b9d4898friend points if you can name this song (without Googling!).

hope your weeks start off rad, friends.

Best part of your weekend?
Anyone have any trips coming up?
Whatcha reading?

Thinking out Loud

i’m joining Running with Spoon’s weekly Thursday Thinking out Loud linkup this week, where we basically just spill our random thoughts and discover little fun (& crazy) facts about each others’ lives. considering how much i love random conversations, i really should be linking up to this more often!

Thinking-Out-Loud1. i’ve taken up a new writing role!  i’m now a contributing writer for MOGUL, “an award-winning technology platform for women worldwide, connecting users to trending content, including stories, jobs, and products that are personalized to their interests. MOGUL is ultimately democratizing information for women worldwide by enabling users to connect, exchange such information, and access knowledge” (taken from their website). basically, i can write articles or pieces on any topic i choose, and use this platform to connect with other female writers while having a global platform for my work. stoked about this! follow me: Shawna Marie. so far, i have two pieces up, but i’m hoping this helps keep me accountable to writing more of my personal/creative stuff (which is where my heart really lies).

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2. spin class. woof. i took one last night at Equinox, which is an incredible gym that i wish i could justify paying for each month — but since i don’t at the moment, i took advantage of a friend’s guest pass and attended his favorite spin class with him — and it took me all of three minutes to remember how much i dislike spin. i mean, i like the idea of it, and i love the music, and the teacher was awwwesommmee and i sort of wanted to be her — but the reality is that i struggle for those entire 45 minutes and pretty much feel like i could die at any time. everything i love about running is reversed in spin: outdoors vs. indoors, individual vs. group, forward motion vs. stationary, so much sweat you can’t see — it’s just nahhhht for me. i get the whole “cross training is good for you” thing, but spin kills me, and my knee aches the entire time from all the repetitive motion. fail.

3. music. i heard a song during spin last night that i loooooved and told myself i had to remember so i could download it later — and i can’t remember how it goes. at all. this drives me crazzzzyyy and has been on my mind nonstop since then. if i’m going to suffer through a spin class, i should at least be able to get new music out of it. i’m honestly considering emailing the spin instructor (b/c she gave me her email in case i wanted to try a class at the SoHo location, but let’s be honest, i’d be happier with new music than a spin class) and asking her for last night’s playlist. okay, so that actually just happened right after i wrote that. let’s hope she gets back to me! i neeeeed this song.

4. yoga. i’m finalllly going to yoga tonight!! i went last year with one of my bestest friends to OM Factory and really enjoyed the class — and never went back, despite continually asserting my need for more yoga, whoops. better late than never, right? oh, and an admission: i think i’m just as stoked to have a real reason to wear my amazing birthday gift from said yogi best friend as i am to actually take a yoga class:

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5. week of workouts: switching it up. i’m having the most varied workout week, which i’m really happy about (minus the misery that is spin class). i did an hour of strength/kettlebells/abs yesterday morning, then the spin class last night, and then a 5-mile run this morning (which felt way better than i’d anticipated given an angry calf i’ve been nursing all week), and now yoga tonight. sorta feeling pretty amazing about that lineup of two 2-a-days in a row.

6. surprises are amazing. so i just took a break and went to lunch in the middle of writing this post, and came back to an email from the lovely spin teacher with my song in it!! gahhhh this day just keeps getting better and better.

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7. hilarious marketing. my corner wine shop killed it with the signage last night.

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i went in right after spin class and bought two bottles just to support their use of creative marketing. (well and because, WINE.) nice job, guys. sold.

8. every girl needs this. its-a-girl-thing-33-photos-1
in a world where it can be so easy to give into negativity and insecurities and focus on what’s “wrong” with our bodies or our lives, we need to surround ourselves by reminders of how amazing we really are. i want to buy this for every single one of my friends — and put one by my bed, too. imagine starting and ending your day with such a pick-me-up?

or another similar option, from Etsy:

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9. this is awesome…

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10. & so is this.

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cheers to almost Friday, friends!

Tell me something random from your week?
Best workout you’ve had this week?
Fave pair of yoga pants?

Friday Five [5.22.15]

i’m in a fabulous mood today and super stoked for an amazing weekend ahead — hope you are all feeling the same! i’m also full of all sorts of randomness so i’mma forgo the Friday linkup fun and just do my own Friday Five spillage sesh, mmmkay?

ONE: runnnnning. so yeah, it’s going really well lately and i’m loving this pain-free return to my runnerlover self! i snapped out a sunny 6-miler before work today in the beautiful sunshine and felt like i was kicking rainbows out of my heels, i was so darn skippy! i’m planning to add on another 3.5 miles by running home from work today (and i get out early to start the long weekend, woot!) and taking advantage of this gorgeous weather and feeling so good!

TWO: taco love. i have an obsession with fish tacos in the summer & at the beach and if they’re on a menu (and not fried), i always feel a compulsion to order them because i can’t live with myself knowing i passed them up for something i just won’t enjoy half as much, guaranteed. i literally had them every day at least once in Amelia Island a couple of weeks ago and i now feel like i have to have them this weekend, too.
i know this saying is everywhere these days but i just love it and think i need this and wish that was me in that pic. let’s just pretend, k? til i can reenact for ya’ll (am i allowed to use that contraction in the northeast?).

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& i’ll even be nice and buy this one for my brother…or wait til i get a boyfriend because God knows he’s going to be begging this of me alllll the timmmmme.

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THREE: lake life. i’m going here after work tonight:

photohi, family lakehouse. you’re my favorite place.

& i’m extra happy because these faces are coming with me for the long let’s-kick-off-Summer weekend:

photobest place + best friends = best life. BRING IT ON, SUMMER 2016!!

our mission this weekend is to come up with a signature drink for each one of us (and our friend Tim whom we affectionately refer to as our “Harem leader”) based on taste preferences. hopefully by next week i will have more details for you on the Shosh, the U30, the Ellehop and the Tandrews cocktails. 🙂

FOUR: shop. VS is having both their big annual summer swimsuit sale & a sweeeet deal on undies right now, fyi. and since every girl always needs more of both, you probably should all place orders today. i’m actually not a stupidcrazy shopper at all and prob spend way less than every other woman in NYC on clothes, but i have a thing with swimsuits and can’tstopwon’tstop buying them (super convenient for me that the one thing i love buying most i can only wear a few months out of the year where i live.) also i recently lost my fave bikini top so i had to re-order it, and add a bottom and another top to make myself feel better about the loss.

FIVE: write. because when your soul screams at you to do something, you really have no choice.

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have a wonderful, beautiful Memorial Day weekend, my lovely friends, wherever you may be! xo

Whatcha doing this weekend?
Fave type of tacos?
If you were going to choose a signature drink, what would it be?

Friday Five: Favorites

FRIDAY!!! gosh am i so stoked for this one. this has felt like a loooong week…anyone with me there? all this relentless snow March has been bestowing upon us here in NYC certainly isn’t helping, either, never mind coming down with my first cold in agesss. basically, i’m just ready for this week to be folded neatly behind me, thankyouverymuch.

soooo i’m linking up with Mar, Courtney & Cynthia for this week’s Friday Five theme of Favorites.

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basically i’m just going to assume this means i can write about my overall fave things in life, or my fave things from the week, or choose a theme of favorites…where does a girl start? i’mma just follow my spunky blog friend Salt’s lead and choose 5 random things i like, because i had oh-so-much fun reading her post this morning.

ONE: 100 books everyone should read. i love books. & reading. & lists like this that tell you what books you should make a point to read. i printed it out and highlighted the ones i’ve read (in their entirety — i’ve started, or read excerpts from, a few of them, but that doesn’t count), so i think i’m at about 59. new 2015-2016 goal: finish this list! was stoked that a lot of my personal fave books were on here, including these memorable nuggets that have entirely changed my life:

  • Gone With the Wind (all-time fave book) by Margaret Mitchell
  • Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  • Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood (love alllll of her books)
  • Little Women by Louisa May Alcott (obsessed with this when i was young)
  • The Chronicles of Narnia series by C.S. Lewis (the whole series is amazing)
  • Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery (i lived, breathed and thought i belonged in this series as a child)
  • Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll (one of my fave stories of all times, and i wrote my thesis in undergrad on this book and won an award for it, woot!)

okay i just realized i could have turned this whole post into “fave books,” so let’s stop this list before it takes up the rest of your morning. anyone want to start a virtual book club and work through this list with me?? i think you do!

however, i would have added White Oleander, Tiny Beautiful Things, and Love in the Time of Cholera to this list.

TWO: poetry. springboarding off my last point due to finding this quote:

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i love poetry. i love reading it, i love writing it, and i love the very essence of what it adds to the world — the idea of it, if you will — the way it makes even the dust swirls in the air seem to glitter & sparkle with the potential of magic lingering close by. i’ve had poetry on the brain quite a bit lately, and i’m feeling inspired to be more diligent about my writing and see what i can make of it.

THREE: my last name. or derivatives thereof. and friends who enjoy it just as much as i do, and buy me cute/funny gifts.

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FOUR: Asos. i lost half my week to this site, holy Moses. does it exist simply to torture me?? you can even choose “little black dress” as a filter, for goodness sakes. like, just take my paycheck now, Asos. between you and OmShanti, i’m going to be the poorest cutest-dressed girl in Hell’s Kitchen.

let’s take 2, on the sneak preview of the 4-dress order i’m currently awaiting. hurry upppp, dresses…

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FIVE: prayer. never, ever to be underestimated. i’ve been reading my Bible and praying a bit more this week, and i honestly can see the difference, no matter how slight, in my mentality about things and how i’m approaching situations. how easily i get distracted by my daily life, and push this to the side; how silly of me it is to do so, when i know it changes everything.

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as i say alllll the time on RTA, i’m super blessed with the most amaaazing girlfriends in the world, a couple of whom i immediately go to whenever i need to talk or have a situation i need to sort through or vent about. there’s nothing like knowing your girlfriends can — and want to — be there for you and help you through anything. i admit it: i tell my two best friends pretty much everything, all the time, no filters, no TMIs, total “help me with my life” vent sessions. thanks, guys — you’re seriously the best.

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however, i rely so much on these convos with my trusted friends, that i realize i don’t default to talking to God about these issues or pray for guidance on them, because my friends and i should be able to handle everything life throws our way, right? well, no, not really. God is God, and we are not. He’s the one who will really give me the strength and patience and clarity and peace about everything i’m dealing with. He’s the one who will really change my heart, even though my friends do pretty awesome job of helping me stay sane. 🙂

happy weekend, guys! hope it’s fabulous, wherever you are.

Something (random) you love?
A highlight from your week?
Fave book?
Clothing item you automatically default to buying? lbds & running tights for me!

xo.

weekend recap

Monday. ooof.

let’s recap a few things…since i’ve pretty much been a horrible blogger lately and totally neglecting this lil space!

*running. ok, so this is going semi-well, but i’m not exactly killing it lately. it’s been super cold here — thankfully, that seems to have broken today, so i’m hoping to run outside tonight — so i’ve been dating the treadmill, which isn’t my fave. i got in a few 3-5 milers last week and then an 8-miler on Saturday morning (all on the treadmill), then rested yesterday (aka didn’t leave my bed all day). i’m hoping i can do this half in a few weeks, but i definitely am not very prepared, so we’ll see how it goes.

*celebrating. i love parties. i love birthdays. i love a good excuse to dress up and go out. i am obsessed with my girlfriends.

add all of these things together, and Saturday night was a smashing success in celebrating one of my close friend’s birthdays.

happy birthday to my Southern belle, Carrie <3

happy birthday to my Southern belle, Carrie

there was pink champagne & pink cake (made by me! i’m not a sweets person but love to bake for other people); sequins & sparkly personalities & dancing at Mister H in the Mondrian SoHo, where we celebrated another one of my girls’ birthdays just last month. it’s such a good party spot — not too clubby, but somewhere between clubby and loungey — and always so much fun.

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ummm so if you haven’t seen Chris D’Elia’s skit “Drunk Girls,” do yourself a favor and watch it right now. like, right right now.

all sorts of hilarity.

*writing. someone just pay me to sit around and write little snippets all day, please? mmmkay.

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*inspiration. because i don’t know about you, but i certainly can’t be reminded of these things enough…and feeling it today, especially. even when you know life is beautiful & amazing & wonderful, it’s so easy to get caught up in our own heads and let the world beat us down, for a million little reasons that seem like such formidable giants at the time.

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positive words can do so much to renew our soul. sometimes, i forget where my hope lies; i forget to just be still, and trust that God has much bigger plans for me than i could ever imagine or devise on my own. it’s easy to let your focus slide, and lately, i’m feeling like i could use a recharge.

hope your week starts off well, friends.

xo